4.29.2010

If at first you do not succeed...

CD 9 and I'm getting geared up and ready for this next try. I haven't started OPK's yet, but am checking my cervix, watching my CM, taking all my (freakin) supplements, and have ordered the sperm for delivery for next Tuesday, which will be CD 14. Can I tell you that I am SO looking forward to lugging that huge tank into the teeny tiny waiting room chock-filled with enormously pregnant women at my OB's office? Yeah. Good times. Nothing like a liquid nitrogen tank sitting between two women holding hands with huge beaming smiles on their faces that screams "We're here to get knocked up!" Also fun is accepting the tank from our front desk guy in our building. Hey, guess what we're going to do upstairs with this thing?!!? Sigh.

So the plan is basically the same as last time. I'm looking for a faint positive (will probs happen somewhere b/w CD15 and 16) at which time we'll do the at-home insem (with lots of love and probably some orgasm(s)). Then we wait until the OPK really turns positive, and we head to the OB to sit with our baby-tank in that nerve-wracking waiting room. OR I don't wait until it turns positive and go if all my other signs are telling me to. We'll see. I went back and forth about doing three insems this time around (2 at home and 1 IUI), just to cover all my bases, but figure if two worked enough to get me pregnant last time, hopefully it will work this time. If not, then three next cycle it is.

Emotionally, things are excellent. I have to tell you readers, that I had the BEST time with Ruby and Rose during their short visit here. Now.. I have known Rose for some time, and so it was wonderful to see her again after a few years, catch up, talk about the old days, and just see her lovely face. But. I also have to tell you how incredibly rewarding and informative and generally all-around amazing it was to meet Ruby (who is so chill and lovely) in person to talk shop about this whole blogland we semi-live in, our TTC processes, and what the future holds for us. It was like I had known her for years, through all we knew about each others' intimate lives. I will admit that I was initially a wee nervous about meeting Ruby, as when we both discovered we knew Rose, I was pregnant and she was not. Now quite the opposite is true, and I had a fleeting moment of panic where I thought it would be difficult. But. That was not at all the case, and instead of feeling weird or sad about my situation, I felt completely at peace with my own non-pregnant state and completely thrilled for Ruby's. We had a great time just getting to know one another, and talking through the entirely crazy world that lesbian TTC can be and is most times. And today's u/s news totally made my week. I could not be happier for my old friend, her new wife, and the wee dragon. Kudos!

So that's what's happening here. Probably CD11 I'll start OPK's, and we'll go from there. I am feeling great about this cycle and am just appreciative of being able to get back in the game and have all the excitement and anticipation that I had the first time around. Wish me luck!

Oh! And added bonus- Ruby totally flew her extra Evil P all the way from her native land to lil 'ol me, for my upcoming cycle. How awesome is that? Thanks again, Rubes!

4.21.2010

CD1, Take 2.

AF is back in the house, our month out is over, and Chefy and I are ready for round two to commence!  I am excited, thrilled, and open to cycle number two. Let's hope this time it takes and stays. As an added bonus, I get to see my old friend Rose of this lovely couple, and meet her awesome (and newly pregnant) wife Ruby, as they are visiting SF the next couple of days. What a cool way to bring in a new cycle. Can't wait ladies!

4.20.2010

MeMe

Hair: Long
Your Mother: Short
Your Father: Tall
Fav Food:  Wife's
Dream Last Night:  Fuckedup
Fav Drink:  Vino
What room are you in?:  Dining
Hobby: B&W Film Photography
Fear: Failure
Where were you last night?: Restaurant
Something that you aren’t:  Insincere
Muffins:  Pumpkin!
Wish List Item: Nino
Where you grew up:  Heartland
What you are wearing:  Boots
Your Pet(s): Enemies
Friends:  Best
Something you’re not wearing:  Shorts
Fav Store:  Zara
Fav Color:  Black
Last time you laughed: Now
Your Best Friend: Chefy
Best place you go over and over: Bookstore
Person who you email regularly: Melissa
Fav Place to Eat: Out

Tagged: EVERYONE!

4.11.2010

Family Cures All

I'm currently sitting at my parents' kitchen table while they are at church with my grandmother. (my atheism is my father's only dissapointment with me lol..) and I have to tell you, there is nothing like spending a few days with my family to get me right in the head after what' been going on in TTC land.

I have spent the last three days processing this whole experience with both of them. From cycle details, to cervix and insemination talk (with mom only), to talking about the donor, to all of us talking hopefully about the next time I get pregnant...it's been a great way for me to heal and be able to think positively about starting to try again. 

So I feel ready. I've O'd while I'm here, so a month from now we can try again. Until then, I'm going to enjoy my wife and take comfort that I did get pregnant on my first try. whoo hoo!

4.03.2010

3 Things

One. I am talking with my oldest friend a few days ago and mentioned the m/c. (we are close, and I knew she would put a realistic yet positive spin on it. Did she ever.) She says.. "didn't I tell you..." and proceeds to fill me in on the fact that a couple months ago her period was a week late (she is very regular), and that she took a hpt that day and it was negative. That night she started her period, which was abnormaly crampy, abnormaly heavy, and with abnormal tissue. Hm. Realizing we have been through the same thing, she offers no apology to me (an act of which I am not only not offended, but relieved) and says...."sometimes I think it just takes a woman's body a couple of times to make it stick." Fascinating theory, indeed. Did I mention that she's a biologist? Gotta love some old friend wisdom sometimes.

Two. Spring is here, and it is lovely. Got out of the house today for the first time in what felt like a thousand years. My body is now officially in love with sunshine and fresh air, and over feeling like crap.

Three. I am leaving on a fabulous distraction of a trip. First to Chicago for two days to see my siblings, and then back to my homeland, Iowa, for some parent-love. I will eat my weight in corn-fed beef, spring garden veggies, and ballpark franks while there. Can't wait. Ooh. And some deep dish.

PS. I am so crazy happy for all the bfp's around this place lately. Congrats ladies and partners of ladies. This makes me wanna get up and dance my pants off. Maybe I will. Kudos!